Sunday, May 22, 2011
Slugging it Out
Well, Day 3 of biochemo and I'm still kicking. More like I am hangin on - this stuff really, really sucks. Each of the five anti-cancer drugs have their own side effects, so combining them creates Dantes cocktail. For me its mostly bone rattling chills and nausea. I have nine blankets on me right now. The staff here is amazing, and they have an enourmous arsenal of drugs to counter, or minimize, the side effects. I have two days left of vinblastine and cisplatin - both chemo - and also two days of IL2 - the primary biologics. The biologics make you feel like you have the mother of all flues. And three days left of the biologic Interferon. I can suffer through anything for three days more, especially when I imagine the toll its taking on cancer. For every effect it has on me it has a more pronounced affect on the disease. I feel like we are some Rocky movie slugging it out in the corner, trading blows one after another. The will to win, to overcome, to vanquish the foe combined with a deep seated belief in your own strength keeps you from stepping back and throwing in the towel. That's all I can write now - thanks for all your support and supporting Ann who is standing by my side through all of this, every message is a little firework of hope in my heart.